Blindsided

Depression sneaked up on me this Sunday evening. An utter sense of helplessness and "poverty" consumed me and left me feeling completely wretched. Soon I was reduced to a teary mess and I am pretty sure this emotional breakdown is not due to hormonal imbalance that I can blame physiology for.
No, I am not in any form of debt but I am immensely impoverished in recent times. Perhaps it's a 'change in lifestyle' shock symptom. Maybe it's because my bank statement is translating into a bearish graph. Whatever it is, while people are moody over their pittance of an annual bonus/ increment, I bemoan the non-existence of these in my current situation. And it gets to me that I do not know when I will 'come out of the woods'. Or can I get out of it alive?
It doesn't help that Chinese New Year is around the corner and I am expected to distribute generous tokens of appreciation to the elders this year. This exacerbates my pain and I sink further into the quagmire of total despair.
Sleep has always been an amazing panacea. I hope this time, it does its magic once again.